I began as a professional dreamer. I studied the beautiful Dutch clouds during school.
Besides dreaming, I daily played the piano for hours, sang, composed, followed acting lessons, loved the stage, was into sports and wrote in my personal notebook during the nights.
When I was 18 years old I entered dramaschool in Amsterdam,
but it turned out that that was too much drama.
I changed the stage for television, acting for presenting and had my own television program for children. Then I hooked up with the wrong marine
and grew up.
When I was 28 years old, a friend asked me to look after his camera for a day.
That seemed fun, because I’d never made a photo before. I walked around town and started to capture what I observed.
It was a magical moment to realize that my love for observing, my view on the world, my many interests could be expressed in a visual image. From that day on photography was my complete existence.
I signed up for Fine Art studies in Holland, because I felt more like a visual artist using photography as my medium, than a photographer.
In my third year of academy, I found a book about life in the Daitoku-ji, zen buddhist temple in Kyoto.
It was my introduction to zen buddhism and Kyoto.
Even though I’d never meditated before and didn’t knew anything about Japan, I strongly felt that I had to go to Kyoto and meditate in the same temple as in the book, and so I did.
I found a University nearby the Daitoku-ji temple where I could follow analogue photography class and where they could teach me how to make washi paper (I have a paper fetish) as an exchange student.
I was reborn in the Daitoku-ji zen temple in Kyoto. I felt totally free and very much me again.
After meditation I walked into the bamboo forest and made abstract nature series.
Here I started my ongoing zen series.
Besides zen there is chaos. A lot of chaos.
All the other works I create comes out of chaos and frustration.
After creating such work I need to be offline in nature again.
After chaos comes zen after zen comes chaos.